Yesterday, I said goodbye to a very dear friend. What gets to me is I don’t know if in his final hours he knew just how much he meant to me and the memories I have of him. He was the husband to one of my favorite cousins and the father of my two godchildren. We had not spoken in many years and I don’t know if it was because of the pain we both felt for the loss of my cousin, or if it was just life and time that got in the way. But I regret that I didn’t reach out more, even just a call here and there to keep in touch.
Friendships and family are the things I hold dear to me and yet with the busy life we lead, I find myself letting so much time go by in between calls, text or emails that just say “hello”, “how are you” or “I love you.” One of the worst things to live with is the feeling of regret.
I have many close friends and family out there that I don’t reach out to enough. I live my days hoping that they know how much I love them and with each day that passes I tell myself, “I will call them this weekend.” The weekend comes and something always happens, life gets busy and hectic and we just lose track.
But with the coming year and with new resolutions on the horizon, I want to let my people know, and you all know who you are, that I will make a better, more conscious effort to keep in touch. You all mean so much to me and my life has been shaped, enhanced or brightened by each of you.
Be kind to each other. Don’t hold onto grudges and resentment, life is just too short and we never know when our last day here on earth will be. Tell someone you forgive them. Tell someone you are sorry. Tell someone that you love them.
I hope this holiday season finds you all with the most magical of times and that you fond memories of lost ones and are making even better memories with the ones who are here with you now.
Have a peaceful night!
Johnny Bryan Ward